Wellllllll it’s September! Wake me up when it ends, am I RIGHT?!?!?! JK, this September is going along swimmingly so far! Last weekend, I went to an absolutely beautiful wedding in Beacon, NY. Allison officiated and I wept like a baby. Then, I spent the rest of the night getting low with people I had just met, including the groom’s mother (who can DANCE let me tell you). It was very special. Love is special, celebrations are special, new beginnings are special!
And speaking of new beginnings, you know I couldn’t write this entry without talking about the #jewish #new #year!!!!!!!!!!!! As I’m writing this, we’ve just officially entered 5782 (can anyone tell me when we started counting these years. I guess it was 5,782 years ago but like…… what happened to start the counting) and a new year means time for reflecting, honey!!! They call this period “the days of awe” and you’re supposed to get really introspective. You’re also supposed to apologize for the bad things you’ve done in the past year and every time this season rolls around, I recall the boy I kissed in college who didn’t tell me he had a girlfriend then apologized to me a year later on erev yom kippur by saying, “I heard through the grapevine that you felt mislead.” :)
It’s been an introspective year in general, as it has been for most people. It’s also been a year full of changes for me. I got a new apartment, a new job, new colors in my hair. I firmly entered my mid-twenties and it feels like a new chapter in my life. I saw an old friend from college recently and we caught up on what our friends are up to. She pointed out how it’s funny to hear “the 25 year old updates on all these people” and it caught me off guard because not that much time has passed since graduation, right? We’re still kids, aren’t we?! Yet, friends and relationships and jobs have all changed and as I point out to my mother frequently I am an adult, in fact!!!! I don’t know if it’s the pandemic that sped things up or if it’s just the natural progression of life, but things feel a lot different since college. I feel different! In good ways for the most part. I feel more like myself and more like I know how to trust myself.
That’s one of the biggest goals I have for myself for this upcoming year! (earnest) In the spirit of reflection, here are some other goals I have. If you are feeling reflective yourself, I’d love to hear what you hope for yourself for this upcoming year!!!!!
To prioritize the people and things that fill me up (that’s a phrase my therapist uses
To use retinol regularly
To buy fresh fruits and veggies from a place that isn’t Foodtown, why is the produce there disgusting
To catch up on my silly shows and not look at my phone while I’m watching :/
To get a handle on my laundry habits… the infrequency with which I do it is simply unsustainable
To walk outside more!!!!! (every day?!?)
To show up and support the people and things that are important to me
To get highlights again bc it made me feel hot (maybe go lighter???)
To seriously consider switching to Spotify, it’s embarrassing at this point
To keep communicating openly + honestly
A lot of these aren’t very lofty goals, but they are all things that ground me in myself, make me feel more at home in my body, my mind, my communities etc. And when I feel secure in myself, I feel able to handle most things and truthfully, that’s all I can ask of myself at this point in time! To handle my shit and keep on going. So that’s ultimately what I hope for myself in this new year. WHAT ABOUT YOUT?!?!
Thanks for reading! Here are some gorgeous pics from this gorgeous wedding:
And for the real fans, here’s a video of me trying to do a Mare impression near a very loud waterfall. I think absolutely crushed it?!?!?!??!?!
Thanks again for reading and HNY!!!!
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